I have been unable to shake this thing for X and it is completely maddening. I cannot believe that I am so - obsessed. Its sick.
Friday night we went out - all the teachers for dinner and drinks. I was having a great time. And then I noticed that he was sucking face with his (not) girlfriend. And my mood completely changed. As if!
I went to the gym on Saturday (woohoo!) and couldn't stop thinking about him and how much I hurt that we couldn't be together. I am disgusted that that is even possible.
But for as much as I know that the idea is moronic I can't do much about it. I suppose if I meditated on it I could come to terms with it, but I'm not a meditating kind of guy.
I think that writing this is helping. I feel better already.
Last night I drank at bottle of CC. I don't remember much. Woke up on my friend's floor.
Plan for this week. Gym six times. Wake up early and do legs and skip. Going to try and eat more sensibly than this week - I did pretty well though I think...
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