third time around

So this is my third blog. I haven't written in my last blog for over six months, probably closer to eight and I can't be bothered to update it, so I am starting anew.

Currently I have found sometime to blog again which is nice since I do really love to do it. I am an ESL teacher in South Korea and my afternoon schedule now includes a spare every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I should be preparing for my classes and aiming higher for myself and my students. But truth is I can't be bothered and I will do the same as I always do, walk into class and ask what page we're on.

Its not that I don't care about the kids or my job, its just that I have become quite content with settling for mediocrity. I suppose that's why all of my attempts at body modification have ended in failure.

But of course at minutes to midnight on December 31st, I vowed to turn it all around and make some positive changes in my life. Quit smoking, blah, getting off beer, blah, and blogging again. Blah.

I could/should do it when I'm off the clock, before bed perhaps. But I have to blog when I'm inspired. And I am inspired most when I am in the middle of my day and need to escape the reality that is dealing with these children. Today they haven't been particularly bad per say. In fact my kindergarten class went from 9 to 7 over the break and small classes are much easier to deal with than big ones.

But I am sort of in need to a release, or escape. I just got back from Thailand. It was beautiful. It was scerne. It was just what I needed after five months of teaching. But coming back I was not prepared for round two. I hadn't come to terms with the end of my vacation and this morning as I was trying to teach 6 year olds, who are in their 2nd year of English what ecology and pollution are, I just wanted to run away and never look back. The thought enters my head every so often. How much I want to go home. How over these children and the job I am. But I can't cut and run. Its not THAT terrible. I'm not swinging a sledge hammer or working retail. Both I've done and both are worse.

Its just... something. I don't know.

Well, its good to be back blogoshere. If you haven't read my stuff before check out my profile and read away.

The next post will be about Thailand and forbidden love. Oh yeah its good to be back.